Why is it some people always manage to make the right decision? I hate those people. I hate decisions. Most of the time I feel like no matter what decision I make it's going to be wrong somehow. Whether its what to eat, where to work or where to live. In one way or another it'll be wrong. Intellectually I know every decision has its pro's and it's cons and you make the best decision you can with the information you've got and you try to find the balance etc.
It's because I made a horrible decision once. A decision of total and utter selfishness which hurt somone else very badly. I made that decision for a lot of reasons and at the time I believed they were all correct and thinking back I still believe that. And yet it weighs on me every day and it cripples my ability to make decisions. I took the choice away from someone and ever since then I've not been able to properly make decisions, like I don't deserve to be trusted. Really I'm scared and I'm so insecure its pathetic. I should probably forgive myself but I just cant seem to do it.
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